I refer to the words of A. W. Tozer: “What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us.” If you don’t go to church or listen to Christian radio or read Christian literature then you may not know what I’m talking about. But if you do those things then you are probably familiar with that quote. It is regularly cited with warm approval in Christian settings.
But what comes into my mind when I hear it is, “Oh no – they have not read C. S. Lewis’s ‘The Weight of Glory’!” Or worse, they have read it and disagreed with it. If you have not read “The Weight of Glory,” please stop reading this and go read that. Or listen to a recording online. After you take in Lewis’s sermon you won’t want to read anything else soon after. You will need time to ponder, weep, rejoice perhaps, and bow the knee to God.
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Near the beginning of “The Weight of Glory,” Lewis says:
I read in a periodical the other day that the fundamental thing is how we think of God. By God Himself, it is not! How God thinks of us is not only more important, but infinitely more important. Indeed, how we think of Him is of no importance except in so far as it is related to how He thinks of us.
There it is. The most important thing about you is not what you think of God but what he thinks of you.
There are individuals who have accurate thoughts about God but it does them no good. Demons are orthodox monotheists. James 2:19 says, “You believe that God is one. Good for you. The demons believe that too, and shudder.” One of the first affirmations of Jesus’ identity came from a demon: “I know who you are, the Holy One of God!” (Mark 1:24). The devil was so knowledgeable about God’s redemptive plan in Christ that he tried to derail it (Mark 8:31-33). I would bet that the devil could even explain subtle differences between infra- and sub-lapsinarianism-- whereas as I, a Bible major, forgot what both words mean a long time ago.
Don’t get me wrong. It is good to have right thoughts about God. But Lewis is certainly correct in saying that what is infinitely more important is what God thinks about us.
And that is a problem. How can we possibly know what God thinks of us? We have ready access to our own minds, but “Who has known the mind of the Lord?” (Romans 11:34). The Bible quotes God as saying, “My thoughts are not your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8). Job’s friend Zophar asked him, “Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? They are higher than the heavens above—what can you do? They are deeper than the depths below—what can you know?” (Job 11:7-8).
Faced with the difficulty of discerning the mind of God, many people simply project larger-than-life images of themselves onto deity and assume that he is like them. Psalm 50:21 exposes this folly. God says to the wicked, “These things you did and I kept silent. You thought I was just like you.” Few sins are more beguiling than that of extrapolating our corruptions onto God and convincing ourselves that he is as indulgent of our behavior as we are. I see other people do this all the time. How do I know I’m not doing it myself?
We ought not underestimate our ability to self-deceive. The Bible says, “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked. Who can know it?” (Jeremiah 17:9). Saul the Pharisee thought he was doing good when he tried to extinguish an upstart religious sect. His conscience affirmed him, and his understanding of Scripture made it clear that God was on his side. But then Jesus knocked him down and turned him around with such compelling force that he became a zealous advocate of the Way he once despised. His proud opposition became his deepest shame, and drove him acknowledge that he was the worst of sinners (1 Timothy 1:15).
So how do you know that you are not now as deceived as he once was? How do you know that you are not - from the perspective of the Eternal and Holy – a foul villain and a moral outrage?
I’m afraid there is objective data to suggest that we view ourselves much more highly than we should. In 1997, U S News and World Report asked a thousand people, “Who do you think is most likely to go to heaven?” Celebrities were ranked. Sixty-six percent thought Oprah Winfrey was going there. Michael Jordan was close at 65%. Bill and Hillary Clinton came in at around 50%. Dead last was O J Simpson at 19%. First overall among popular figures was Mother Teresa, whom 79% of respondents tagged as heaven-bound.
But there was one obscure, unknown person who clobbered Mother Teresa in the ratings. And that was...whoever was responding to the survey! When asked, “Are you going to heaven?” 87% said yes. That is, the average person felt more secure about his favorable standing before God than that of any public figure, sinner or saint, on planet earth.
If you listen to modern evangelical preaching, you would never guess this tendency to “think more highly of ourselves than we ought to think” (Romans 12:3). Today we are told the opposite – that we beat ourselves up with guilt and shame and need to learn how to rest in the confidence that God is tickled pink with us. A few days ago I heard a preacher say to his congregation, “You’re one of those that says, ‘Pastor, if you knew what I’ve done or where I’ve been, what’s gone on in my life – God could never love someone like me.’” I've heard that line countless times from dozens of preachers in the last few decades. Preachers today assume that their listeners are racked with guilt, doubtful of God’s love, and in desperate need of assurance. But I'm afraid that far more people are racked with pride, presumptuous of God’s love, and in desperate need of warning.
The songs we sing in church attack self-doubt like it was sin, and assure us that God has only nice thoughts about us. A couple Sundays ago at my church we sang,
What if I saw me the way that You see me?
What if I believed it was true?
What if I traded this shame and self-hatred
For a chance at believing You?
Wait a minute. The lyrics assume that my shame and self-hatred are bad things, and that they can be traded for a reassuring faith that God sees me in a favorable light. That is not biblical. In the Bible, better men than I hated themselves more, and felt far deeper guilt. Righteous Job, confronted by God, said, “I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes” (Job 42:6). The prophet Isaiah saw the Lord and said, “Woe is me – I’m ruined!” (Isaiah 6:5). St. Peter said to Jesus, “Depart from me, for I am a sinful man” (Luke 5:8). St. Paul said, “I know that nothing good dwells in me” (Romans 7:18). St. John said, “When I saw him, I fell at his feet like a dead man” (Revelation 1:17).
I cannot for the life of me understand how “seeing myself the way God sees me” could be a comforting rather than dreadful thought. I'd prefer not to know what he sees. God sees all, and he is holy.
Despite my sin and that of my fellow congregants, modern evangelicalism beats into our heads the notion that "God is for us, not against us!". In one popular Hillsong worship anthem we sing (over and over and over again),
You are for me, not against me, I am who you say I am!
What pops into my mind when I hear that monstrously presumptuous affirmation are Bible passages where God says the opposite. For example:
Jeremiah 50:31: “Behold, I am against you, O proud one," declares the Lord God of hosts, "for your day has come, the time when I will punish you."
Psalm 34:16: The face of the Lord is against evildoers, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
1 Samuel 12:15: If you will not listen to the voice of the Lord, but rebel against the command of the Lord, then the hand of the Lord will be against you.
God isn't for everybody. He is for some people and against others. The Bible says that many, many times. The most important thing about you is which category you're in, and that is something God knows for sure and that you can be deceived about. Therefore be humble. Quiver. Doubt yourself. Repent of known sin, and beg God to reveal to you those sins which alienate him but have yet to alight on your malfunctioning conscience. Presume nothing, but cast yourself upon the mercy he has made available through the sacrifice of his Son Jesus Christ. I don't know, right now, if God is for you or against you. But I do know that God "opposes the proud, yet gives grace to the humble" (James 4:6; 1 Peter 5:5). Be the kind of person to whom he gives grace rather than the kind of person he opposes. Remember that his evaluation of you is the only one that matters. As for you, well, it would be better to fear you're going to hell and wind up in heaven than to assume you're going to heaven and wind up in hell.
